I heard some very sad news about an old friend yesterday. Blinded by the worldliness of things desired, and listening to the unholy whispers making things seem right and all OK, making wrong choices. Stepping outside God's will and way. Walking away. And I asked myself:
Where does God go when we walk away from him?
I hear things like "He's right where you left him.", and "He's waiting for you." but these aren't really true are they?
He doesn't leave us alone. He has promised that in his Word. So if he isn't "somewhere" well then, he must be "here". We are choosing not to see, not to look.
And then I got to thinking, how many times do I step outside God's will, choose my own way, and never think a thing about it?
And he is right there next to me.
We look at others who make big mistakes and shake our head, murmur a prayer, and determine to "be there" for them when they return to God's way.
But looking in through the mirror of God's eyes at my everyday life, I see a million tiny steps that take me in the wrong direction.
And God is right there for them all.
When I give up his peace to yell at my children.
When I give up his guiding to spend that extra money on something that is truly a "want".
When I don't trust Him to be there, so take control; again.
When I give up His purpose for my own willful way.
And then I asked myself:
What must God look like as he watches me defy him? Or when I simply choose not to let him be God? Is his face covered in sadness? Are his eyes a little brighter with disappointment? Does his heart hurt at my disregard of his love and sacrifice?
As I consider these things, will I allow it to change me? Truly, deeply, at the very core of who I am?
Some people's disobedience is much easier to see than others, but remembering that any wrong choice is sin might help us to keep a holier perspective.
And knowing that God isn't "somewhere" but right here, as close as our breath, might remind us to try a little harder, live a little better.
Because God never goes anywhere, and knowing he is watching our wrong choices and willful disobedience has to be enough to change our heart and mind.
Forgiveness, guidance and strength, are right here waiting. God hasn't gone anywhere.
“For I know the plans I have for you, ”declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”Jeremiah 29:11-13