Ok, so I was really "up" getting ready for Hearts at Home. Two days away with the ladies from the church, getting to know each other and maybe getting some ideas on organizing and such. The focus of the conference was perspective. Do we live our lives for the here and now, or will what we do matter 15 years from now. There were lots of ups and downs during the conference. I would be really excited about some things, others would make me really regretful of what I haven't done, or done wrong. Thank goodness for the grace of God! Anyway, I get home, once again "up" ready to work on getting my house in order and determined to get some kind of schedule going so I don't feel so scattered.
Well, the first week hasn't gone well. I am definately in a "down" swing right now. They are always hard after such a great "up" time. I have learned I put too much pressue on myself to be all things to all people, usually putting what God wants last. I say yes way too much to the point that I am not as effective as I could be by limiting myself. It is hard to learn what to step back from and what to hold on to. So I am baby-stepping my way out of some commitments and letting up on myself on some of the superwoman expectations. "overwhelmed" has been the keyword for me lately, and I am working on changing that. I have had several friends step up in the past few weeks and really support me by holding me accountable and just by being a shoulder.
Hopefully my ups and downs will level out soon. I know that the faith I am working on during this will strengthen me and pull me closer to God, no matter how long it takes. See what happens when you pray for more patience and joy? God quickly gives you opportunities and situations to develop them yourself.