"Blessed is she, who has believed, that what the Lord has said to her will be accomplished." Luke 1:45

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Changing insecurity for strength

Have you ever wondered about something, something that is part of what makes you, you? Have you ever wondered why you were that way or asked God to help you understand or change...and then you never did?

I have been like that over a certain insecurity for a number of years.

Yesterday, as I was getting out of the bath, it was like God decided to just give me a little bit of enlightenment, out of nowhere.

I am not quite sure why He has decided to give me this information now, or exactly where to go from here. I am not even sure what to think about it.

I do know that it is definitely a way for me to grow closer to Him, to prune some of the dead branches so that I can bear more fruit.

I think this might be the result of my increased trust in Him. I have felt like my walk with Him has grown over the last month or so, and this may be a natural progression of that. Or, there may be a time of testing in my close future, and I need to resolve this issue to be able to make it through.

"Because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance"
James 1:3
The great thing about leading small groups with the teens on Sunday mornings is that I am getting deeper into the Old Testament. Today we talked about Job. All during his time of testing, Job was learning about the character of God. Some of my favorite scriptures are of God leading Job through the creation of the heavens and the earth.
I am not saying that I want to go through suffering on the same scale as Job, or that I would be able to remain faithful to God during that time, even though I hope that I would; I am saying that I truly believe that our greatest times of growth occur when there is absolutely nothing left but to turn to God and admit that, from my point of few, there is no way that this situation can ever be fixed.
I think this theory holds true in our day to day struggles as well. Each little decision, each little conflict resolved, every weak point in our character or emotions addressed, these little trials knit us to God in a strong fabric of faith.
By giving me a starting point on this insecurity, I know that God intends to heal this weak spot in my faith. Even if it takes a little pain, or discomfort to prune this branch, I know that I will be stronger for it, able to bear more fruit.

1 comment:

Shanda said...

I love that God is actively at work in your life and that you are able to recognize it. You will be stronger for it and your fruit will be amazing!